R e L i v e d

My opportunity has come.
The chance that I thought I would never have.
My prayer of deep desires has been answered.
It has finally arrived

I dreamed of the day when you’d hold me close,
And look deeply into my eyes.
I longed for the warmth of your hand,
Your hands that fit so perfectly in mine.

I was honored to be there by you,
Breathing slowly, deep, and in sync.
I have long wondered how you felt
And now I am so happy to know

Not more than a year ago
I ached for the loss of your love
And now I’ve been given this gift,
This chance to love you once more

But time is growing short
Sand pouring through the glass
The ticks and tocks they sound so deep
Reminding me that things can’t last

You are not mine; Can never be.
But that is not what I wanted so badly.
I got what I needed. Gained what I wished for
The chance for love is all that I asked

I guess Love is like money
You can never have enough
No matter what I’ve been given
I still want more

God has made him Great

Mr. McGee
Date #2

Let me start out by saying that within the last year I made a rule for myself to not go to the temple/temple grounds with any date. Well, I already broke that rule….

On Tuesday after "Teachings of the Living Prophets" we were playing Ping-pong as usual when he asked me if I’d like to join him in doing baptisms for the dead. I said Sure. Though at first I regretted it, I no longer do.

It was really nice to go to the Jordan River Temple the next day on Wednesday. I have not been for far too long. After doing baptisms we headed the Café Rio, one of our mutual favorites. We both got burritos enchilada style. Mine was Chicken with pinto beans and his was beef with black beans. We both like the green medium sauce. The restaurant was packed so we drove to his house to eat. When we pulled up to his “house” I made the comment: “So, is it the biggest in the neighborhood or just the second?”

He then taught me some tricky moves with his Nunchaku Nunchucks. (Watch out folks I can now kick your butt with them.) He demonstrated with wooden ones, but only let me use foam-covered ones. –Good thing, because if not I’d be covered in bruises.

Some Stats:
His love for the martial arts began when he was really young
He is adopted along with his older brother
He’ll be turning 22 in March
He works out loads
His father was a Monk
He has traveled by cruise chip to many exotic places in the world including Paris
He is very refined, proper and simply amazing
As I said before He doesn’t seem to realize just how hot he really is :)

Mr. McGee

Date #One

Wow, talk about a spiritual high! This amazing fellow recently got home from his mission in Hong Kong. He is the hottest looking guy on earth but he is so humble that he hasnt a clue. Girls melt as he walks by without him realizing anything. We play ping-pong everyday after our institute class together and then we often eat somewhere. The unfortunate guy has been trying to get a date with me for a few weeks now but I have been too busy working.

So last Wednesday at ten o'clock we went out for a date. We played Speed, Chess and Poker at my house and then we went out to Panda Express for lunch. I smeared him at Speed, and then I stale-mated his king in Chess. He totally kicked my butt though at Poker. I have the worst Poker-face ever. (Dont worry folks there was no money involved) -Good thing too, I would have lost my piggy-bank :)

The Quiznos dishes get done twice as fast if I am listening to Swagger. My co-workers hate Flogging Molly. Therefore I listen to them as often as I can :)

Her words:

"The friendship between a man and a woman which does not lead to marriage or desire for marriage may be a life long experience of the greatest value to themselves and to all their circle of acquaintance and of activity; but for this type of friendship both a rare man and a rare woman are needed. Perhaps it should be added that either the man or the woman thus deeply bound in lifelong friendship who seeks marriage must find a still rarer man or woman to wed, to make such a three cornered comradeship a permanent success." -Rev. Anna Garlin Spencer

I always want what's out of reach

-Eve 6 said it and so must I.
I have been asked over and over again what I want to be when I grow up.

When I am asked this question I usually tell them I am not sure yet, that I am still considering my options or that I am simply undecided. But that isn’t completely true. I do know what I’d love doing for the rest of my life…it’s just too far out of reach.

What I want to be and/or do when I grow up:
(When that may be I do not know)

I want to travel. I want to go to Europe on a grand tour. Then I’ll go to Africa where I can build schoolhouses and read fairy tales to starving children. I want to be a nurse and a doctor. I want to heal people, especially kids. I will work in Primary Children’s Hospital for as long as I can before my heart breaks permanently. I want to be a chemist and a technician who creates new drugs to cure future cancers. I want to be an author. I want to write and publish all the great stories I will have when I grow up. I want to be a politician. I will do my best to turn things around. I’ll try to save the government from destroying itself and becoming corrupt. I want to paint and draw and create beautiful things that I can enjoy. I want to do abstract pieces most. I will be entertained when listening to people who try to understand what I was feeling at the time of creation. I want to be an architect. I want to design and help build my future mansion that I will call Home, Sweet home. I want to be a pilot. I want to fly an F-16 from one horizon to the other. I want to be a skydiving expert and be paid to throw myself out of a plane. I want to be an astronaut and go to the moon and the spaces beyond.

Holding Back Strikes

Mr. Retreat -His real name is Michael D. Keller
Date #2 -For some reason he is still interested in a third.
I guess dating a girl 8 yrs younger isnt that big of a deal for him.
Well forget the stats I gave you earlier. Half of them are wrong anyways. So I discovered tonight that he is actually 26 years old, which makes him eight years older than me. That is quite a bit too much for my comfort. Most guys that old are certainly looking to get married. So I decided that I am slowly going to back out now before I hurt anyone. I havent figured out how to do the backing-out part yet. suggestions anyone?
The poor fellow hasn’t bowled for years and I had to REALLY fake my skills in order to not smash his self-esteem. I purposely scored only 106. I hate holding back spares and strikes. I kept saying that my thumb was getting stuck and thats why I was "unlucky"
We watched Corpes Bride. This was my second time. The first was with Brown. And I’d like to say that I liked it much better the first time, and my date had a lot to do with it. The second time simply stank. It smelled like bad cheese or like wet dog. does that give you a clear picture of just how much fun we had this time?
How is it that on the first date I had a splendid time and the second date have almost the opposite?

My goals for 2006:

1. Run until I can no longer walk -my track coach taught me that
2. Beat my P.R.(personal record) in the 400 meter sprint
3. Lose volume(fat) and gain weight(muscle)
4. Pray at every meal (which means at least 5 times daily)
5. Save money by not buying things that I don't really need
6. Learn something new every single day and share that new knowledge with someone else
7. Take up a new hobby or activity this year I am thinking Tennis
8. Pass all my classes this semester with good grades
9. Get a new job that I can excel at. $$$$$$! here I come
10. Wake up when my alarms goes off. The first time.
11. Do laundry twice a week. Never let the pile of dirty laundry get so big that it causes me nightmares.
12. I am NOT getting married this year or the next! You can count on it.
Note: #12 is not a challenge...It 's a promise :) I swear